Today’s topic got me thinking and I’m not sure that I want to think about ten years from now. I was already freaked out when I realized that my sons would be 18 and 16 in ten years. WTF! Seriously, just that thought made me nauseous. I will be the mom of two teenage boys! I didn’t know if I wanted to go any further with that thought, but I did. I’ll have one son graduating high school and another learning to drive. Can it get any worse? I admit it. I felt complete panic. Then I felt at ease with the thought that if my relationship with them remains strong this is going to be both a challenging yet rewarding time. I love my boys. Now wait a minute, the prompt just says “in ten years” well, what about me. I’m such a mom that I totally forgot about me and just thought about where my boys would be and not about myself. Isn’t that what we do? I’ve been trying hard not to and dedicating this year to myself. Well, here is my chance.
The only thing that could be more frightening than thinking about children ten years from now is thinking about me. Think about it. Is it just me? Are you nervous too? Why would I want to think about it? I then realize that I need to think about it. In order to be successful in anything you need a plan. You need to have goals. Crap. I thought I was making huge strides by dedicating this year to myself, but this is much larger. I don’t know if I can do it. Yet, I feel I need to it. I need to do this for myself and my family. This is going to take some time and serious contemplation, much more than can be completed in any blog post. I’m going to do it. I am. I’m adding this to my list of goals for the year.
Here is what I do know: In ten years, I’ll still be living and loving with my husband and boys. I hope to be successful in whatever business path I chose. I’ll have healthy and loving relationships with my family and friends. I’ll be as happy or happier than I am now. I’m sure I’ll be learning some sort of new technology that my kids will have to teach me. The rest, well, as the saying goes, the best is yet to come!
Melanie says
great post, mine was kind of along the same lines. My kids will be 16 and 14, who gave them permission to grow up?
Ashley Perrin says
Haha I didn’t think about the new technology. I’m sure that’ll happen with me too. 😛
Karen ~Georgia Angel says
What a great post. I loved your thought process. It’s frightening isn’t it? I will have an 18 year old daughter and a 34 year old son. UGH! I didn’t think about my oldest, haha. Maybe I will grandchildren by then?
MsXpat says
So true. 10 years seems like a long time but its not and you get to wondering where do you want to be by then. Scary, depressing…