My mind is racing with all of these great ideas and I just can’t get them all done. Doesn’t it seem like there is never enough time for it all? I have been feeling so good lately. I have tons of energy and have finally gotten a grasp on how I want to complete certain tasks. Spring cleaning is on it’s way and I feel good letting go of all those things that don’t matter to me anymore. Unfortunately, my spirit is not at rest like the rest of me. It is restless and I think it’s not just my home that needs a good cleaning. Relationships need to be reevaluated and changes need to be made that are beyond bagging or boxing items for the thrift store. Negative energies need to be removed and priorities need to be established and strengthened. This is Springtime, a time for renewal, a time for reflection and growth. I’ve been working up to all of these, but this warm weather seems to be forcing me to grow sooner than I thought.
I’m not perfect, but I’m not a liar. You’ll be seeing some very frank posts here from now on. One of the biggest thing I’ve been afraid of is that if you honestly knew what I was thinking you might not like me. The truth is whether you like it or not it’s what I’m thinking. I feel I’ve been holding myself back out of fear and this Spring I’m going to try to own who I am. Now, don’t get me wrong, I’ve never steered you wrong or given you inaccurate information. I just haven’t always been as frank I’d like to be. That’s who I am. I’m tough, I’m honest and maybe not so forgiving at times. I’m also compassionate, caring, and an awesome friend and mom. I work hard and I’m not going to pussy foot around anymore by making myself seem smaller so someone else can seem big.
My boys are my sunshine and they have definitely challenged me in many ways. I have grown more being a mother than at any other time in my life. They have helped me look for the rainbows after the storm and have been those same rainbows when there were none to be found. Life with kids is complete chaos and that’s okay because it shouldn’t be any other way.
Walter says
Sounds like we’re in for some fun reading!