I don’t know exactly why I’ve been thinking about this lately, but I wanted to share with you all. When I was pregnant with my first son Noah, I thought about what kind of parent I would be. I thought about it so much that I actually had a dream one night about it.
Now mind you, my husband and I never found out the sex of our baby, until the day he was delivered. We wanted it to be a surprise. I guess that’s not the norm anymore because the doctor never said, “it’s a boy”. I had to ask-LOL.
Anyway, one night I had a dream that I was sitting at the counter of a diner having a cup of coffee. A young man in his twenties came in and began speaking with me. I told him all about my life and we laughed and I was struck by how polite and attentive he was to me.
I was pregnant in the dream and for some reason told him how frightened I was about not being a good mother. I told him all my fears. I couldn’t even look him in the eye. I got up realizing that I had some how embarrassed myself by sharing these thoughts with a stranger. He must think I’m crazy, how could this young man even understand what I was telling him.
As I rushed for the door the young man stood up and said, “You did the best that you could do, and that’s been more than enough.”
I looked him in the eye and turned away, then I felt a rush in my chest and I knew I had been talking to MY son. I turned around and he was gone.
That’s when I knew I was going to be having a boy, a boy with curly light brown hair.
When I begin to doubt the road that I am taking as a parent I think about this dream. We can only do our best. Definitely words that I live by everyday. Parenting is a tough road and we can get caught up in what other people, teachers, and friends think about our skills. The truth is that you know your child in ways that other people could never grasp. When you hold that truth in your hand and follow it, you are being the best parent you can be. In doing that, you will be enough for your children.
Take some time today to breathe in the wonderful gifts you were given as a parent.