My anxiety has been getting the best of me lately. I feel as if I have nothing to be anxious about, but I must. I’m not motivated, I can’t sleep, and I have butterflies in my stomach all the time. I know I have to get back to my exercise routine because I could really use those endorphins. Maybe it’s the fact that I’m homeschooling my one son while sending my other guy to school. I don’t know. Today I’m finding out that I’m not the only one having a tough go at September and that has made me even more anxious. I know this will pass, but I just wish it would get a move on. Change is hard. Life is changing. Here is my latest:
This week I learned that:
10. people say they want things, but in the end they don’t want them bad enough. ( I’m guilty here, too. You know you’ve done it: “I want to lose weight, but it’s so hard let me eat that cupcake.” “I need to make more money, but I don’t want to work over time or weekends.” etc, etc….)
9. word gets around. ( Thanks to Facebook, news spreads fast. If you don’t want someone to know something keep it to yourself. I wouldn’t be complaining about people at work on my Facebook page when anyone can see it- just sayin’)
8. this broken arm thing is really getting old. ( I can’t wait for him to be able to play like a little boy should.)
7. my “friend” has been telling everyone about how terrible it is that my child broke his arm, but didn’t even bother to call or email me. ( Thanks for telling the entire town my saga that you read about here or on Facebook, but a personal call would have been nice. )
6. in the moments when I feel like I am falling apart, someone comes out of nowhere to tell me I’m doing a great job. ( So confusing, yet supportive just at the right time.)
5. I still can’t shake that nagging feeling that I’ve lost something. ( Not something physical, but some part of me is gone.)
4. sometimes I just want to stop everything and be a mom 100% of the time. ( No blog, no events, just loving, learning and being 100% with my boys and nothing else.)
3. after years of not having to bathe a child, dress a child, brush any teeth or wipe any butts this broken arm thing has reminded of the fact that moms of small children have it tough. ( Thank God he started wiping his own butt, but really I need this arm thing to be over.)
2. people can be very supportive of homeschooling. ( I had expected to hear all sorts of negative comments when we told people and the school that we have chosen to homeschool our oldest son. Instead, I was met with positive comments and support. Wonderful!)
1. Every single thing you say matters to someone. ( Be kind and use kind words in front of your children. They in turn will be kind people.)
ruth says
Love your posts. I always find myself nodding my head!
beyourbestmom says
Thanks babe!
Jenn says
Amen to that! October is going to be a great month!!!!
Dionne says
You are doing a GREAT job! (#6)
beyourbestmom says
Thank you!